Title: 2011 part I
Date: Monday, November 14, 2011
Time: 10:55 PM
its been a very long months i did not update me blog .. sorry ya'll ....
i just finished my O levels .
alhamdulillah .......
alot of things happened this year and i wish i could write it all ....
but too lazy ah to remember all the stuffs ,... makes me wanna puke , angry , punch somebody in the face or something ?
haish ... i realise what the meaning of true friends is after this year incident .
heh ...and im sure every thing happened has a reason behind it ...
well there are some good stuff and i guess im going to share juist the good ones heh ?
well after a year not seeing youknow who ..
well not a year lah , a few months maybe ?
yes sorta miss him ALOT , but what could i do ? i have no other ways to contact him ..
and im sure HE DOES NOT WANT TO CONTACT TO A FREAK LIKE ME ..
so i tot of moving on ... i tried contacting with a guy that i like when i was sec 3 . i knew him from my madrasah ..
yeah he's all i want .. i mean the attitude part ..
a malay word to call him LURUS BENDOL ?
to straight .. to religious .. tough its a good thing ... but one thing i HATE about him is that
he likes to cancel things on the last min ...
and this year on my birthday i have to wait for him like from 10 00 to 1730 ?
he keep on extending the timing and last min he says he's too busy and cannot meet ..
and he say sorry like theres nothing happened ?
like WTF ???
but while im contacting him i tot i could forget this youknowwho ....
but each time i wanna forget him , i cant .. i have memories of him in the school ?
DnT block and canteen especially .. haish ~
i wanted to burn the picture of him that i kept in my wallet .. but tak tergamak aku nak buang or bakar nye ,.....
its like when i miss the youknowwho i look at the picture .. and then i cried ? and when i remember the things happened at school it just touches me ...
haha .
i cried at the pe staff room ,
he said hi to me at the dNt block ... cant be forgetten ..
but well lucky me this is my last year ..
i dont have to go on another miserable year ..
its gross i know .,.... how can a freak like me deserve him right ?
but i still have the feeling for him . it cant fade .. i cant move on like i thought i had move on ...
its complicated :'(
kay
i got to go now ... i cant promise how frequent how soon i'll be updating my blog cuz my laptop spoil and now im staying with my brother ...
its a long story .. i'll share everything when i have the time .. more time to write ..
bye ... :)
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